​May 12 Full Moon - Where is my path now?

As we finally start to roll into Spring in the Clearing, like many people I have been through some serious ups and downs in the last ten years.  I have lived here full time for six months now and even with the stress of moving, hurricanes, complete lifestyle change and medical struggles, I’m 100% sure this was the right choice, the right path, the right place to be in this moment.  My choice to sell my home of over a decade, in a population center of over 400k people, and move to a cabin in the woods where I know no one, has already started to show positive signs, even in these political times.

I have spent 10 hard years coming to this moment, and I have done it alone. I finished a career on the high note, had the privilege of taking care of my parents in their final days, invested my money, purchased my space in the middle of lockdown 2020, built my cabin and my rental camp; all with the subconscious awareness of what my future self will need.  My subconscious laid out a path and my intent for the small goals along the way have added up to a magnificent clearing on my path of life.  Completing my detachment from my city home and lifestyle, I have spent a month doing nothing but resting and trying to find my next goal.

It has occurred to me that over a decade saying “I’ll rest when I have time”, I’m actually at the “Have Time” moment!   Who knew it was an actual thing!

For the first time in my life, I can’t see a path.  I can’t see what I should be doing.  My elemental connection is strengthening and my ability to communicate with my universe is growing exponentially.   It’s a lesson in faith and trust in the universe that is the hardest for me and I imagine anyone who has a good feel for seeing their own future.

As my own mind calms, a new voice surfaces and it’s not mine alone.  Now that I have started to quite my own mind, the land is starting to take up a voice, starting to tell me what IT wants.  For all things there are balance and for my amazing spot, the balance says “share”.  Share what it does for you, Let it do it’s healing things for anyone who needs connection, needs to rest, needs to regroup.

While I work towards those goals, trying to figure out what that will look like, I spent the full moon in a drowsy joyous dream.  I light my table candle.  I prep ginger and lemons for teas and lemon drop candy.  Lemon rinds dried and ready for wax and wicks for Litha in July.  I purchased two rose bushes in honor of my mother on Sunday (Mother’s Day here in the states), grape vines and Lilly’s.  Pretty things to begin my new garden with.

This area of the river, although a very nice private little beach now, was once completely covered with tree's.   Where once a fairy stream overgrown and hidden is now a stripped open to the sun.